In this morning, I was still in PJ (I am off today)

Nina ” mama! time to go work!!”

Me “Mama off today”

N ” no work? no me school today? ”

M “no.. only Mama, you go to school ”

N “NO!!!! I stay home with Mama to help you”

She went to dada and ask him.

N “dada, I want to stay home with mama today”

Dada “you can stay home if Mama say OK, if she says No you can’t”

I wonder why he always use me and he knows I say no – -;


Nina came back to me ask….

N “mama, Can I”

M ” NOPE( ̄▽ ̄;)”


ブー (((( ——- ε ——- )))) ブー


M ” but I can take you school with dada”

N ” Yaayyyy!! I am going to get ready!!”


well… what’s difference I am not just in car or stay in a car with you..
she is fine every time she goes with Dada on weekends.

Every morning, when we ride on back seats together and play.
That’s only difference… so she needs me to a little short ride buddy to play with ( ̄▽ ̄;)

I usually do Nemo(one of her toy) and she do her Sharky ( Shark toy)


Letter from USA

Nina got letter set from Shimajiro (Japanese kids education system)

She drew a lot of pictures and some letters.
She taped it on an envelop… but she used both-side tape LOL
well… someone’s letter would be stuck with our mail to be delivered to Ji-ji and Ba-ba’s house.
That would not be nice.. so I cut wrapping paper and put on.. it looked decorated letter now.

We decided not to tell them until they get it.

Surprise!!!! will be on its way!!!
It will take about 10 days to get there… until then, I must let her keep quiet about the letter.

My one of loving daughters, Hana, turned 11 years old today!!

A few month ago, I thought she would be gone and not made her 11th birthday… but she made it!
She didn’t move around nor eat at all and then, her right side of face, ear.. swollen up so bad.
We couldn’t see her right eye..
A few days later, her right eye was back but still ear .
She had bad diarrhea with blood.. not eat so much…
She lost lots of weight.


Later on, She was diagnosed with a cancer.
We decided not medical treatment, such as chemo, radiation, to take her home and spend a time with family and home.


She has a good appetite and spirit!!

I used to be worried to losing her with cancer or some type of clinical diseases…
but I feel more calm and I am preparing for her departure.

still… she is my special.
still… I want her to live a little more longer without so much suffering.


I am glad to say ” Happy Birthday Hana!!!!” today. yes.. still I can say today.

not anymore

We ordered a pizza other day.
we used to eat most of it, but I only could eat a piece and garlic sticks.

even Nina couldn’t eat a piece.

since I have a recipe of pizza, we barely order pizza….
My home made pizza is much better than them.
Their pizza was just greasy and less topping including veggies.
and expensive!!

We are not gonna order any for awhile….

Who are you?

I cooked fried rice with Chinese left over tonight… but Ni didn’t like it.
She just ate a little and she was looking for something..

“Mama, I want to eat this!!”

Plum…? no!!!! about a year ago, she ate plums a lot behind my back.. and well… imagine that!!!
then… she brought something to me was… Yakisoba!

” no… I need to cook it”


N “go!”
Me “where?”
N ” cook”
N ” YOU!”

(; ̄ー ̄川

got a luck

We got a riding lawn mower for $100!!!
That was a new but need to fix a little.
He trying to fix it…. so far..

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I have not been posting anything 2 years????

I will do my best to post from now on!!!!!